All that city. You just couldn’t see the end to it. The end? Please? You please just show me where it ends? It was all very fine on that gangway. And I was grand too, in my overcoat. I cut quite a figure. And I was getting off. Guaranteed. There was no problem. It wasn’t what I saw that stopped me, Max. It was what I didn’t see. You understand that? What I didn’t see. In all that sprawling city there was everything except an end. There was no end. What I did not see was where the whole thing came to an end. The end of the world...

Take a piano. The keys begin, the keys end. You know there are eighty-eight of them, nobody can tell you any different. They are not infinite. You are infinite. And on these keys the music that you can make is infinite. I like that. That I can live by.

You get me up on that gangway and you’re rolling out in front of me a keyboard of millions of keys, millions and billions of keys that never end, and that’s the truth, Max. That they never end. That keyboard is infinite. And if that keyboard is infinite, then on that keyboard there is no music you can play. You’re sitting on the wrong bench. That’s God’s piano.

Christ! Did, did you see the streets? Just the streets… There were thousands of them! And how do you do it down there? How do you choose just one? One woman, one house, one piece of land to call your own, one landscape to look at, one way to die...

All that world is weighing down on me, you don’t even know where it comes to an end, and aren’t you ever just scared of breaking apart at the thought of it? The enormity of living it?

I was born on this ship, and the world passed me by, but two thousand people at a time. And there were wishes here, but never more than fit between prow and stern. You played out your happiness, but on a piano that was not infinite. I learned to live that way.

Land? Land is a ship too big for me. It’s a woman too beautiful; it’s a voyage too long, a perfume too strong. It’s a music I don’t know how to make. I could never get off this ship. At best, I can step off my life. After all, I don’t exist for anyone. You’re an exception, Max, you’re the only one who knows I’m here. You’re a minority, and you better get used to it. Forgive me, my friend, but I’m not getting off. 

 

 

Have you ever experienced it: staying silently in the bed, in the street, on the ground or in the bus, etc?  with no facial expression, even you try to show some out; and it seems that you are looking at sth, but actually you aren't. You think at least you should smile or cry, but you keep being expressionless at most, with no motive to do anything.

 

 

517 窗口  呆  思

其实发呆亦唔系一件坏事。今日呆住呆住du然意识到一样野，唔想带住那个心理负担生活落去，但系我确实感到无能为力，无头绪无办法...  发呆或许有一样好处，让头痛的事情 看起来 可以甘“轻描淡写”地想or写，至少可以缓解下挂。

 

ok 玻璃 路人

下午茶 人物 豆浆 鱼蛋

椅子 单独 时间

家教完后，还要等妈咪落班一起回家，于是就入左久违的ok，今次唔系要稳罐装原味午后红茶，入去另一个隔间，点左同样久违的鲜磨豆浆同甚少买的4粒鱼蛋，坐落来边吃边看人物。中意杂志画报，因为有色彩，有很多好好的图，而且入面通常都有人物访谈同文化介绍的内容睇。ok入面充斥住熟悉的面包味，突然有人问售货员，“有‘无间道’吗？”我笑左笑，它仲系甘受欢迎。

 

They are skating with heart; that's why they perform better than the other pairs...

 my crystal stars 申雪 赵宏博~~            they're wonder creators...     我对双人花样滑冰的热爱可以说是从小时候看的一本漫画开始的，它给了我梦幻般的感觉，浪漫而唯美，印象最深的就是男女主角在练习四周跳的情节，这是一个难度非常高的抛跳。

     于是，这样开始到这样的现在，恋上看双人的花样滑冰比赛。在我看来，这是一个最美丽的竞技项目。从服饰、外形、表情、动作到感情、精神甚至灵魂，从技术到配合再到融合，若这个过程能被很好地表现出来，那实在是太完美了。申雪和赵宏博就是能做到这些的一对顶尖的花样滑冰选手，在他们身上仿佛能看到神话。

《春魂》《图尔朵》《宋氏皇朝》到完美的谢幕《沉思》，他们比赛的激情简直就能说已经升华到了一种艺术。the beauty beyond words~~

太美太美了....

申雪负伤后忍痛与赵演绎的《图尔朵》实在令人感动到想哭，不仅仅是为其坚韧而惊叹，更是为他们所达到的巅峰和忘情所震撼。

      《沉思》http://you.video.sina.com.cn/b/931415-1239208754.html

       马斯奈的《沉思》是《泰伊斯》第二幕的间奏曲，主人公泰伊斯离开了充满享乐的世俗生活，却无法将它彻底忘怀。《沉思》是申雪赵宏博在今年世锦赛上用的曲子，却也是他俩现在心境的写照。

       赵宏博和申雪在2006年6月在加拿大排演了这个故事，在今年的世锦赛上用这首曲子赢得了他们的第三个世锦赛冠军。他们在比赛之后正式离开国家队，然后在深圳世界之窗经营2000平方米以他们名字命名的俱乐部，用《沉思》向这个冰上世界留下了一个省略号。

在日本世界锦标赛场的小插曲，《沉思》曲末，赵宏博跪下来，在申雪耳边轻说，I Love You. 她看到赵宏博跪，她也跟着跪了下来，15年的搭手，这个时候显得很没有默契。事后，申雪说：“谁让你没提前跟我打招呼？没戒指，也没说让我嫁给你，我哪能就这么同意。”：）